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Responding To The Calling: The Promise Of A Different World

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Q: My question is about the expression of the calling. How is it different from other expressions?

John: The calling is of a deeper level than any of your other levels. For the calling to come into expression, the level of the calling needs to open within your levels of expression, which changes your expression. The levels of your expression open and reveal the calling in you. 

It doesn’t reveal its information in the expression. It reveals its level, the level of the calling, in your expression. Your eyes change. Your eyes will reveal that you know something that is beyond your self and beyond this world, beyond your life. Your eyes would reveal that you know and you’ve seen. 

As the calling begins to show in your expression so that the calling begins to have expression, it will make your self uncomfortable because what is beyond your self has presence in your self. That presence is a profound interruption to your self. It brings into the movement of your self what is beyond your self. In your self you won’t be understanding what is affecting your self, intimately, of the calling, and that will also show. It shows in your eyes and it shows in your face. 

As that presence becomes manifest in your eyes and your face, it will make others uncomfortable because they’ll see something that they know and that is beyond your self and theirs. It creates a disturbance, a disturbance that isn’t for you to remedy, a disturbance that you let have presence. You’re not there to help it or to fix it, but that presence is, within you, dearly welcome to disturb. 

The more that it moves, the more that it disturbs because it introduces the context of reality within a self that can’t comprehend that, even though you know the truth of it. 

You begin to have presence, within, that shows, that is inexplicable. You’re unable to quantify it or to qualify it. It just simply has way. It has way by virtue of its own presence. When the calling moves, it gently disturbs reality because it’s making room within reality for that which reality comes from. 

The presence of the calling is a presence that is deeply foreign, yet deeply known by you as being true. It is because of your knowledge, your direct knowledge of the truth of it, of the truth of the calling, that you let it have any amount of space anywhere in you. 

Everything that the calling touches in you, it opens in a foreign manner. A foreignness opens you because of what you know the truth of that’s in it. It interrupts your ways. It interrupts the ways of your interior. Its way in your interior is foreign; foreign but known by you. You know the truth of it. The more that it moves in your interior, the more that it undoes your self. It remakes your self. 

Q: How is it different from other expressions?

John: Other expressions are by nature familiar. The expression of the calling in you is foreign. It’s beyond all familiarity. It accomplishes a complete inner alignment that isn’t based on familiarity. It’s based on your response to direct knowledge; you directly knowing the truth of it. 

As the calling moves in you and as you are in response to it, it recontextualizes your whole interior. That alters the reality of your interior. It opens what you are to the much more of you that you didn’t know before. The trajectory of your whole life is a trajectory that is foreign to anything that you’re familiar with in your life. It makes you no longer belong to anything that you can see. 

For the calling to have way in you, fundamentally altering you and changing you, free to have expression within anything that is yours because it is then landed in form, is the beginning of a fundamental shift in this world. It is the promise that this whole world, in time, will be all different. 

Q: It looks like it’s gently doing that in a world that is not like that.

John: It moves by presence and not by power. There is no use of power that can stop it. 

Every resistance and every response feeds it. It’s how the truth moves. If you respond to it, you connect with it. If you resist it, you connect to it. 

Q: If you react to it, its expression will be distorted?

John: If you react to it, you stop its expression in you. That doesn’t stop its presence in you.

Shining From Your Higher Self: The Finest Self Development

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Q: John, looking at you I feel deeply touched by your purity, silence and love. Thank you for being so available. You’ve spoken about taking care of what we know. Would you say more about it?

John: What would you be saying more about it?

Q: It should be the important thing in life to take care of that.

John: You began speaking about being touched by that. Continue speaking from being touched by that. It touches a delight in you. Speak about it from within that delight. 

Q: There is only silence.

John: It is true that there is stillness in it, but the moment the stillness that is in it moves, there is expression. Within the stillness you know what you know. When the stillness moves, you experience what you know and it moves through you as that. 

It is one thing to know what you know, which causes stillness within. It is another thing for you to surrender to what you know, and it is again another thing for you to let your self fully express what it is that you’re surrendering to.

First, there is the pull to see what it is that you actually know is true, within. Then there is the pull to surrender to that. Then there is the pull to express that. The pull, within, takes you without. 

The more that you respond to it the more that it naturally shines without, letting what you know in your heart shine from your heart. The light, within, revealed, is a shining light. 

It is the shining of that light, when you surrender to it, that always takes you past your self. That enables you to be extended beyond your self, within your self. That brings up within you a higher self – one that is able to reveal an even deeper light that brings about an even finer shining, a much finer expression. 

The shining of that is you again exceeding your self, being extended beyond your self, being able to embrace something within your self that is clearly greater than your self. 

It is the finding of this within your self, and the expression of this through your self, that is the finest and the most wonderful development of your self.

Purity Of Heart: At Rest In Love, Within

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Q: In your book ‘The Intelligence of Love’ you say enlightenment isn’t everything, purity of heart is. Can you explain that? 

John: You can be enlightened and that doesn’t mean that you’ll be all that you’ve awakened to, all that you’ve come into. It doesn’t really matter how much you directly know, how much you’ve awakened, how much you’ve come into. What really matters is to be what you directly know the truth of within. 

The amount anyone knows is of little consequence. How much you are being what you do know is everything.

Purity of heart means that you are gentled and quieted in your heart because you are gentled and quieted in what you know in your heart. Gentled in what you know, your heart fills with the quietude of what you know and its beingness, which is love. 

With your heart in that way already filled, you won’t take your self to heart. Your heart with your self not in it is clean. Bring your self into your heart and it’s no longer clean. To bring your self into your heart, for you to take your self to heart, requires a tightening, a closing, a holding. 

When you, despite how much your self is mixed into your heart, relax, just by virtue of you, relaxed, your heart opens, softens and becomes cleaned of your self. Your heart opened and softened is already filling with the same as your being. 

The openness and the softness is the first little bit of your being. Then it is your being-filled heart that naturally, on its own, moves. As it moves, moving as love, your being-filled heart fills your self, which makes your self the same as your being and what has filled your heart. 

Purity of heart isn’t a work; it is the quieted absence of it. All there is, then, in a pure heart is you, at rest – you rested in it. With nothing else there, nothing of your self, nothing of your life, your heart is clean. 

Take your self seriously and your heart is closing. The more that you are about your self and its sense of importance, the more closed your heart. 

Unconditional Openness: Your Love, Your Freedom

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Q: I notice in my intimate, sexual relationships that I can be in a moment of openness, comfort and radiance, and then if I’m spoken to in a way that feels aggressive, unkind or mean I’m very quick to close my heart and my being. I really don’t enjoy that experience. What should I do when my heart feels hurt?

John: Quite simply, at absolutely any cost, don’t close.

Q: How? That feels like the only way to feel safe.

John: You don’t need to feel safe. As soon as you have a fundamental need of safety, you must close. You will close, and as soon as you do, you separate from essence of safety and you secure your loss of innocence.

Q: So it’s not about leaving the room or having to remove my self to go someplace that feels better. I can still stay. This is where I get confused.

John: You can do either, but in the midst of whatever it is that you do, open.

Q: To what?

John: Openness doesn’t have an object. This openness is what you really are. You cannot be deeply happy if you’re not opening. You opening unconditionally, without the focus of object or result, is what singularly makes you happy.

Q: So no matter where I am, with whom, what’s going on or how I feel, I open. Is that what you’re saying?

John: Yes. Injury and offence will continue but instead of taking it, you’ll receive it. It’s in receiving it that you’re free of it. It’s in taking injury and offence that you lock injury and offence into your self.

Q: Once I receive it, what do I do with it?

John: It will pass all the way through you. The gift of that is it shows you how deep you go. It will keep revealing to you the depths of your being.

Q: So when injury and harshness come my way, it’s an opportunity to experience the depths of my being?

John: By you opening, yes. All of the resources of closing are your conditioning. All of the resources of opening are your being.

Q: So the thought that opening is scary is just my conditioning?

John: Yes, but when you are honest to what you know in your heart, you love opening.

Q: I do.

John: Nothing prevents you: not your past, not your conditioned self, not your circumstances and not others. That means that when you open, you are free.

Q: And is it also okay to invite people and circumstances that support opening?

John: You don’t need to invite it all in. It will all come. As you close, it all comes. As you open, it all comes. You love opening.

Q: I’ll get a T-shirt that says that! I get really sad when I’m closed.

John: That’s good. All of the results of your closing are so good. When it makes you miserable and angry, that’s so good. That means that you don’t really get away with fooling your self.

In that way, even when you close, help is coming.

Q: That’s a nice way to look at it.

 

The Profound Power Of Words

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Q: You speak of awareness and knowing as one, and its movement being love. It doesn’t always have to be spoken in words – just being what we know is enough. Yet words are necessary in this world and you speak them so finely.

John: Words spoken from within what you’re coming into initiate profound change. With words, in this, you are packaging the unseen and delivering these packages of being right out into what is seen: the being-power of words.

Q: And it doesn’t really matter if they’re fully heard – just that they’re spoken. That’s bringing something into form in this world.

John: It brings you into form in this world; perfect forms of meaning that transcend your self and this world.

Q: So you’re saying it’s important for us to bring it and express it.

John: They’re not just forms of meaning, real forms of what you really are. They are also forms of commitment, committing what is most deep and unseen, within, to what is seen. Words provide instant bridging.

Q: But lots of us are not so articulate!

John: It doesn’t require high levels of intelligence. It requires response to what you know from within the unseen, through what intelligence you do have, right into what is seen.

Q: No particular training required: just simply being what we know.

John: Within the authentic use of any words. For authenticity, as soon as you say what you know, it’s done, and upon that you build.

Q: The real value of words.

John: That value belonging mostly to your being.

Q: I’d love to hear you speak more about words and commitment.

John: Your words always have commitment, so from whatever level or orientation you speak words, you’re putting into form what you’re coming from, what your orientation as awareness is, and the level of that that you’re moving in. So when you settle inside and you say something, you’ve really done it.

If you’re upset about something and you put that into words, you’ve really done it.

Q: It brings the upsetness more into form?

John: Yes. It doesn’t matter what you say; all you say is powerful.

When you realize that, you’re going to be much slower to speak. You’ll be really quick to listen, so you’re really listening within and then you speak. You’re actually directing the power of your words instead of saying things because you can, from your self and your person, which is what you’re used to in this world. If something bothers you then you say it. This whole world functions this way and it’s not real.

Everything other than our own beings is being empowered in this world.

 

High Level Relationship: A Rich, Deep Togetherness

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Q: As I’m sitting here together with my husband, can you speak with us about the relationship? Do the man and the woman have roles?

John: Where there is a use of personality in relating to each other, there will be an emptiness just beneath it. Keeping things active negatively or positively, on the level of personality, increases the emptiness. 

Just beneath the emptiness you have your real meeting with each other, where neither personality nor emptiness matters. It is there that quieted vulnerability knows and sees. It is there that knowing and seeing each other means more than even experiencing each other. In the quieted knowing and seeing, you have subtle knowledge of each other. It doesn’t offer very much, but the little that it is is profound and real. In being satisfied with that little, the two of you have the same ground.

Coming from that little bit is worth the most, and on the level of personality offers the least. It is worth having your relationship from there, quieted within, in meaning that matters. It has no embellishments. It doesn’t satisfy on the level of emotion. It doesn’t move the personalities. It does move the very bottom of your hearts, a little and enough. 

In being oriented to that you’ll have in your relationship the resources of the deep, with the riches of real knowledge, real knowledge within, being within subtlety. The more subtle your communication in that, the richer your togetherness.

Your knowledge of what is the more, within, nurtures more than what you experience together. To your accustomed self it offers the least, but to what you know, within, it offers the most.

The very best of your relationship isn’t going to be in what you understand. The very best is in what you know and haven’t yet understood. It’s there that together you don’t need your accustomed selves – just quieted vulnerability knowing and seeing. It is there that the deepest between the two of you moves. It is there that you see each other as you haven’t seen each other before. It is there that the old between the two of you isn’t a factor and isn’t depended on. In the profoundness of the honesty of that, everything stops and the two of you meet as new. 

What you’ve experienced before won’t help you in the new. Unassisted knowing does it. What you first are, within, does it.

Everything can continue as it has, but it won’t compare to the more within that you know and haven’t been yet: that tiny little bit of real knowledge, within, that you know is worth more than everything that has been so far. Know it in each other and, in being oriented to that, see each other.

In being oriented to that, subtleties of your personalities will be touched and will open that are, within each of you, new. It will help change how you relate through your personalities.  

        

Pregnancy And Parenting: Making Your Heart As A Womb

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Q: I’m trying to get pregnant and for a few years I’ve been having fertility treatments. It’s not happening, and I wonder how to deal with that. It feels like it’s taken everything from me.

John: It’s taken everything from you because you’re making the prospect of being pregnant mean too much. You’re giving it meaning that it doesn’t have. You’re taking meaning from everything else and giving it to the possibility, the wish, the need and the want of becoming pregnant. So working on becoming pregnant is depleting your self.

Q: I don’t feel I can let go of it. How is it possible to go through this without depleting?

John: By remaining profoundly honest while trying to get pregnant. Then you are honest to something that is more profound than you having a baby. If you’re not honest to what is more profound than having a baby, how are you going to raise this baby? If your way of being matters more to you than becoming pregnant, that way of being will also be how you raise a baby.

If your way of becoming pregnant isn’t the same as your own being, then in trying to become pregnant you are separating from your own being. You’re increasing the distance between your self and your being, and while being less and less like your own being, you’re wanting another being to come into your body and grow.

Your heart needs to become like your womb. When your heart is like your own womb, the tiniest little bit that you know the truth of in your heart will grow in your heart. If you take your self to heart because of being taken by what you want and need, then there’s no room for your being in your heart.

The only way that you can deeply parent is for your heart, in all of your parenting, to be like your womb. That begins before you have your baby, and it needs to flourish in all of your life.

If you love your womb you will make your heart just like your womb … whether you have a baby or not.

 

 

The Magnificent Opportunity Of This Life: Your Evolution And The Mobility Of Love

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Q: When physical death comes, what are the actual consequences of how we’ve used the opportunity of this life?

John: Don’t wait for that! The real consequence is that you will have forfeited your real, magnificent opportunity to evolve as awareness.

You’re in this body, you’re born in this body, you’ve come into this body and you have two different sets of form. You have the forms of your own being: these forms are true to everything of what you really are; they’re your perfect real forms. Then you also have the forms of your self. These forms are not like you. They are inherited forms. Part of what makes up that form is what your ancestors didn’t deal with and what this world hasn’t dealt with, and you come in with these forms also. 

What you really are comes in, in between these forms, and you’re able to be either of them. When you’re being true to your own being, you will be just like your own being in the midst of your self that is not like your being, which causes a lot of pain.

If that pain isn’t your focus, then you will just quietly be what you really are in the midst of a self that isn’t at all like you. In that way you evolve, because the only resources that you’ll be using to be in your self are none of the resources of your self but the resources of your own being. 

That puts you, as awareness, into a real stretch. It puts you, as awareness, into your own evolution. As you remain in this, you evolve. That is principally what you were born for: not to have a great life, an easy life, a comfortable life, or a life without difficulty. You’re not born to have a life that serves your self, that isn’t even like you. You were born to come into form where you’re able to be the forms of what you really are, in the midst of the forms of yours that are not like that yet, ensuring your most speedy evolution. 

If you live this life siding with your self – being the forms of your self that are not even like you at the expense of the forms of your own being – you forfeit this entire, unseen opportunity. It’s not that after you’ve died you’ll suffer because of that. It means that after you’ve died, you’ve gone through all of this real, concrete opportunity and that you’ve spent it on nothing. 

Q: What does it feed back when we really use this opportunity and then leave our form?

John: What you are, as awareness, will be much more after you’ve died. On a linear scale, you can also evolve to that extent without coming into a body. But from the linear perspective – to confine it to a linear perspective so it can be talked about – it would take you thousands and thousands of years for you to evolve as awareness without a body because there isn’t the same opportunity. 

When you come into this body, the opportunity is as immense as all of the possibilities for distraction. The distractions are endless. You can have any of them and as much of them as you like, and they’ll all serve the conditioning in your self. 

And it’s possible to come into this body as awareness, in your present evolution, and after your body’s died you are worse off than when you came in because of what you’ve done to what you are. After you’ve died you won’t be punished for that, but the result of it remains, and you’ll continue.

What you are continues. It continues as perfect love. And if you’ve squandered your opportunity in being here in a body, you will have done harm to what you really are. That makes what you really are measurably less. After you’ve died, you will still be perfect love but your mobility won’t be the same. The more that you evolve as awareness, the greater your mobility. 

Nothing bad will happen to you after you die if you live squandering your opportunity. What will happen is you will have seriously forfeited real good.

Q: So we have mobility in this dense form, but this is a different kind of mobility.

John: Your real mobility within this dense form is unseen. You think your real ability in this dense form is all seen. You use what you think and feel and your physical experience to tell you what is real and true, even though when you’re quieted in your heart you know that that’s not really it.

Q: What is mobility of being?

John: I can only give you an idea. I can’t say it as it is. What gives you a real idea of that is the difference between someone who’s completely in their heart, being all they really know but who has a lower level of intelligence, less of a brain. What that one really is, is not at all less than someone of the same beingness, the same residence in the heart, but one has a greater brain. 

The one with the greater brain is love which has more mobility in this world, more capacity in this world, but the one is not more love than the other; it’s just more mobility.

When you evolve as awareness you increase your mobility. You don’t increase your perfect love.

One Touch Of Dearness: The Change Of Your Nervous System

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Q: The tenderness and beauty that I know within is so easy to be in when I’m alone, and with some people it is easy. With others it’s much more difficult!

John: That’s where it matters more.

Q: There are a couple of people in my life that are pushing my buttons in a way that I have no control over, and I need your help.

John: The buttons that they push are the buttons that you don’t need.

Q: So what should I do when this particular person says something and this huge wave rises up in me? Do I get up and leave?

John: No. When a button is pushed, that’s your dear cue, your dear signal, to let go of all personal sovereignty everywhere. Any button someone pushes, they can have. As soon as it’s pushed, you give it up.

Q: I understand this in theory but what do I do when I feel hurt or misused? Do I hug them? Do I do anything? Just keep sitting there?

John: Be hugged by a touch of dearness in you while letting go of everything else. You’re no longer hugging your sense of self. You’re abandoned into being hugged by a touch of dearness. It puts you back into balance.

What you’re agreeing with, within that touch of dearness and letting go of everything else of your self, is that even one touch of dearness matters more than all you think, all you feel, all of your emotions and all of your will. It matters more than your whole nervous system, and there you’re being the truth you know, in a self and in a nervous system that isn’t like that yet.

Give it some time and it changes. Change is the way of form. What you’re being in it determines the direction of that change.

You can be the button that’s pushed, and you’ll empower illusion that’s right there, present and in form. Or, in the midst of any and all buttons pushed, you can be one touch of dearness. There, your direction of embodiment has shifted. It’s only a matter of time, and it’s going to show. 

Any button that is pushed tells you what you don’t belong to anymore. 

Consciousness And Your Relationship To Time

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Q: What is the relationship between time and consciousness?

John: There are different levels of consciousness. What really matters is what is the deepest level of consciousness that you’ve awakened to, that you’re aware of, that you know within?

The most obvious level of consciousness is a personality consciousness. When you’re being that level of consciousness it isn’t going to be inclusive of anything deeper within. You’ll be confined to what is like a very small bubble of consciousness that’s dependent on the condition of your personality and the functionality of your personality with others.

A deeper level of consciousness is your self, your interior that is independent of everything that is exterior.

A deeper level of consciousness, again, is your heart. As soon as you are in your heart, your heart opens and you are in a heart level of consciousness, a heart consciousness which then fills your self and fills the personality. When you’re being a personality-type consciousness, you’ll be most fixed to time, most dependent on time.

As soon as you open a little deeper to being in your self in a way that is independent of your personality, time slows a little. It shifts. Your relationship to time starts to open, but it’s as soon as you are gentled, quieted, rested in your heart that your whole relationship to time changes.

As soon as you are gentled and quieted in your heart, that’s the beginning of you being free of your relationship to time, which frees you of your self, of your whole sense of self. As soon as you are gentled in your heart you are much less an individual and you are more something of a being. As soon as you are in your heart you are more a quality, such as nurture or softness or openness instead of being the experience of an individual, which comes in your self and introduces you to a whole relationship to time. 

It’s the sense of being an individual that limits you in your relationship to time.

The deeper the level of consciousness that you’re coming from, the more that your whole relationship to time changes.

 

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