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Sexuality And The Emergence Of The Deep, Within

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Q: I’ve felt such a magical connection in these last few days. It’s hard to put into words. I feel wide open. It feels so deep, yet so gently light. There’s electricity in my body and around me. My body’s vibrating and I’m wondering if it’s connected to my sexual energy. It’s so strong. 

John: That means that this isn’t going to come into you and move in you without this emerging in your sexuality and coming through your sexuality.

It has nothing to do with sexuality in your life or in your self. It has everything to do with what is deeper in you than your self subsuming and taking your sexuality, all there in your body, without you bridging that to people and without you connecting it directly to your self.

It’s the deep in you emerging through your sexuality, without that being linked to your sense of self. 

Q: What is the electricity, the vibrating I feel? Where does it come from and what is this?

John: Your being, really activated in your body. Your being, aflow in your body, which for you is inseparable from your sexuality.

As you let the deep in you have your body, your self, your life, your self will be turned right side up, which in your sense of self and in your nervous system will feel upside down, out of control and deeply disorienting to your sense of self. 

As this moves in your body, your being, aflow in your body, is going to make new pathways in your nervous system. It’s going to change your brain, your whole perception of reality. It will bring you into what you came into a body for, what you came into this life for.

Your whole self-life grounded in the world will diminish until it’s unrecognizable. It returns you, through your response, to what you really are. What ends is all of who you think you are. You won’t have a self-image anymore. You’ll have a self all changed.

Q: Can I have this same connection with people of the same deep level?

John: No, because in your patterned way you’ll use it for your self. But as this emerges in your body, emerges in your self, has it all and changes it all, it will relate and move directly into the same in others – so then, yes.

Q: What shall I do with all the energy I have, or should I do nothing? Just be in it, be it?

John: Pour it all into your sexuality, without linking that to your self or your life.

Q: I feel it very strongly now I’m talking with you. 

John: Use none of this for inspiration or motivation. It isn’t for your self. It’s all for deeper levels of you that you haven’t come into yet. But it’s moving.

Q: I don’t know where this movement is taking me, but I want to go there.

John: Until you die, you don’t have anything else: not your life, not your self – just this.

This is the beginning of you being from the inside out instead of from the outside in; the same composite as before, but a completely different chemistry.

Q: Thank you, John.

Awakening And Responding To The Calling

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Q: I’ve had a few little glimpses of awakening in my life, and have an incredible fear that if I go there, I’m not coming back. Is that true?

John: When you awaken, the self doesn’t disappear. What doesn’t come back is what the self was. 

Q: Does everyone have the chance to awaken in this lifetime? Does some huge event have to happen or can you just flow into it? For the last couple of years I’ve been waiting for some kind of cosmic thing to happen. But while I was sitting here five minutes ago, I suddenly felt myself drifting into something incredibly joyous and blissful, and I didn’t try to get there. 

John: It is more like you cannot actually get away from there. It keeps calling you. The more quieted you are, the greater the resonance of the calling: you knowing more than what you are being, and that if you would be what you know, there would be much, much more. 

Q: I feel as if I’d see this whole world waiting – a whole amazing place that I can be – and I feel what stops me is lack of courage. I seem to be waiting for courage to come from somewhere to go to that place, yet probably what is real is just to let go into it.

John: It doesn’t require any courage. It doesn’t require you identifying what you regard as being your strength. It requires you identifying with what is actually your weakest weakness, but that would make you entirely vulnerable to love. 

Your weakest weakness is that tenderness always convinces your heart. Tenderness is the way into what you think you are afraid of. The tenderness that it is, is the surety within you that you can trust it. 

Then it is no longer some great cosmic event, but just you completely believing what you always really knew was true. 

Q: Thank you. I’m clear about what you’ve been saying, and I feel my heart has opened. 

The Chemistry Of Deeper Sexuality: New Hormones, New Brain, New Body

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Q: You’ve spoken of the awakening of the new brain and you said that chemically it’s hormones, but hormones that only the being can move. Is it when sexuality is given to the being that these hormones are produced?

John: It will move hormones not understood yet by science.

Q: So they do exist but they are only accessible when sexuality is given to the being?

John: When the deeper levels move and more of the brain opens.

Q: Then those hormones get activated?

John: Yes, and hormones that were there before can be activated as well, but in a different way. They can produce something different.

Q: Completely changing the sexuality that lives?

John: Yes.

Q: Even if we activate it from the self?

John: No.

Q: Does it have to do with the being developing?

John: It’s different.

Q: So that means that the hormones you said science hasn’t discovered yet are almost like part of the functioning of the new species, the functioning of the being in the physical?

John: Yes.

Q: And how will it translate? Will it look like this liquid intimacy that we begin to know in the meetings, and in meeting?

John: A self that moves sexually cannot comprehend what chemically and hormonally moves when a being moves sexually.

Q: But the being can be aware without understanding?

John: Easily.

Q: Can you say more about the way that hormones that were there before, change? Is that because they’re aligning to something different, having a different connection to the brain?

John: Yes.

Q: So there are the ones that are completely new, there are the old ones that align, and then they work together?

John: And then the new, when you stay with it, changes the old.

Q: So then it changes the whole body. When you say that scientifically it’s not proven, it’s the whole way that science looks at the body that’s lacking.

John: There’s a chemistry to anything that you experience in your body. As if science comprehends the magnitude of all the chemistry of the body when someone is moving in other realms and deeper levels! Science doesn’t know what’s going on in the body there. What’s taking place is physical because it’s taking place in a body.

Q: But then the whole cycle of the body totally changes.

John: Yes.

Q: Is there a way to be in it to allow it to happen, or is it just response?

John: Response to what you know.

Q: So that relates to what you said: that the new brain is for the being to have function in the physical?

John: A new brain means a new body.

Q: And that’s all the way to the surface?

John: Yes.

Q: I feel that the veil between here and what we call the “other side” – where we are after we have died – is so thin. Is that to do with the barrier to the subconscious becoming thinner and perforated by the permission I’ve given for it all to come up?

John: If you’re following through with pools or streams of being despite your subconsciousness coming up. If you have any interest in your self then the experience of your subconsciousness coming up is going to be appealing to your self, and right there you miss the real opportunity in what’s actually happening. You can’t even see it.

Q: You can’t see the streams.

John: Streams that are not recognizable. If any of your energy goes to your self, you can’t see that stream.

Q: What do you mean by energy going to the self? Like a preference?

John: Any kind of self-relating, without that self-relating being something that’s bad.

Q: How would that experience of the subconscious coming up appeal to your self? What would it look like if it’s not appealing?

John: While you’re experiencing something, the experience itself doesn’t distract you from what it is you’re able to read.

Q: Experience can be quite vehement, but it’s about not feeding it.

John: When a really unusual stream opens up and you come into it, you’ll experience it, so it’s not about not experiencing. But if you’re interested in your self when you’re having a deeper experience, no-one realizes the real opportunity that’s missed.

You can even register something deeper in an amazing experience, but you don’t know what you’ve missed because of what self-referencing or self-reflection is there.

It’s like the difference between really excelling in a sport or making it to the Olympics. Not everyone who’s really embedded in a sport and aiming at the Olympics goes to the Olympics, and it isn’t necessarily a lack of effort that makes the difference.

Q: So who goes?

John: It comes down to subtle differences. I’m using it as a metaphor for this: subtle differences in openness, where you can be really open and, with just a touch more, you would notice a door here. Without that touch more you can’t see it, so you have no idea what you just walked by.

That’s why I have mentioned several times in teaching that the last 1% makes a bigger difference in being able to comprehend the more of reality than opening within the first 99%. There’s a bigger difference in the last percent than there is from the 10% to the 99%.

Q: Is it a broadening and a deepening of discernment that allows one to recognize what comes from the subconscious?

John: No. The subconscious moving is like a carrier.

Q: A carrier of what?

John: Different possibility that is not recognizable by the self.

Q: That’s why I wondered about discernment.

John: It’s not about discerning; discernment doesn’t get it. It’s opening in a way that is beyond what you’ve ever opened before, and you’re not opening because you discern the possibility to open in a way that’s new. It’s just that you are opening, and you’re not cognitively realizing or discerning that you’re opening like that.

Q: So it’s really just about opening?

John: Yes.

Q: What is it that allows us to see what we’ve turned from because the self is interested in it or devastated by it?

John: What makes the difference is that when I say this, something in you walks away slightly stunned, slightly riveted and there’s nothing there to understand, so whatever you think you understand is not it.

Q: Are you bringing in the different streams or is it just that I open to it?

John: I’m moving those different streams a lot. They are the ones I really won’t speak about.

Q: Is that last 1% some kind of love that is so much more than we can comprehend?

John: That last 1% you can’t really comprehend in your self.

 

On Soul, Spirit, And What You’re Really Here For

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Q: I’d love you to speak more about the relationship of the being, the soul, the spirit, and love.

John: What matters more than anything – what matters more than your self, what matters more than your whole life, what matters more than your own heart, what matters more than your being, what matters more than any of your forms – is your soul.

Your soul is an unseen form. It’s the form of your evolution as awareness. It’s the evolution, the development, of what you really are. Your soul increases as you, awareness, respond to what you know. When you turn away from what you know, for any reason at all, your soul decreases.

Your soul is the most difficult level of yours to see. It’s the hardest to see because it has no contrast; it’s equally present in every level of yours, seen and unseen. Your soul is as present and there in the deepest levels of your being as it is equally there in your personality. There is nowhere in your forms where your soul is not.

When you’re present in your body in this life for what you most deeply know the truth of, then you are in reality, in this life, for your soul. The real opportunity of this life is for your soul to increase.

The more you respond to what you most deeply know the truth of, the more that your soul increases. The greater the personal cost of your response to what you know, the more deeply your soul increases.

Q: What is the spirit?

John: Your spirit is the essence of your being. As a metaphor, your spirit is like the breath of love. You, awareness, respond to your heart and there in your heart you come into the deepest that you know the truth of. It isn’t a concept. It is a most delicate beingness. 

As you respond to that, you return to being the same as your being. As you continue to respond to the deepest that you know the truth of, you not only become one with your own being but you turn into its breath, and as you do, you’ll see what you’re asking about. 

If you respond to this much, that puts you into the homework of a lifetime.

Q: Does it take a lifetime to come to that awareness?

John: No, but it will take a lifetime for you to express all you realize.

What Is Real Parenting?

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Q: Earlier this year I had a vision of having a wife and two children in about ten years’ time. Now, my girlfriend and I are four months into her pregnancy – a little earlier than expected – and it’s pushing our evolution, for sure! You’ve been talking about the innocence of children, so I wonder what you would say about approaching parenting, and about receiving from children in that process.

John: Amazingly, there are two beings in her body, and despite everything else that’s occurring, they’re communing. If you attune to it, that’s your preparation for parenting. 

The real parenting isn’t about doing all of the right things. The real parenting consists in meeting and communing, knowing and seeing. In everything, that’s what the child is going to be looking for.

Your words won’t matter much. What you’re being in your words is what a child listens to. 

The simplest that you can give to your child is the dearness between the two of you in your relationship – the dearness between the parents. That dearness matters more than the two of you getting along in your selves. The dearness matters more than anything else that’s occurring. 

Where the dearness is there, what that really means is that the two of you are together. 

Where there’s dearness, that means that the two of you really do know each other and see each other. 

Let nothing of your selves get in between that.

Q: Thank you.

Meeting the World Situation From Your Heart

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Q: I’ve been following all the world events, and I’m looking for some guidance on how to be with the chaos and violence. How is a good way for me – for all of us – to meet what is happening?

John: From your heart, without you taking to heart what you think and feel in your self about the world situation.

If you take to heart what you think and feel about the world situation you’ll have a mixed heart. What you most quietly know the truth of in your heart will be covered up by what you feel and think in your self about the situation. 

When you take seriously what you think and what you feel in your self about the situation, you become, in some way, the same as that situation. You’ll see within the situation because you think and you feel. Included in those thoughts and feelings is that which isn’t integrated in your self. You’ll have conditioned thinking and feeling. The conditioning of those thoughts and feelings doesn’t tell you the truth. It begins to make you the same as the situation. 

The only real way to address the situation is by first being in your heart. That cleans up your own thinking and your feeling, because while you’re coming from your heart you won’t be exploiting thought and feeling. You won’t be exploiting the situation, giving you a deep reason to think and to feel.

In coming from your heart, your thinking and feeling relaxes concerning the situation and you begin to think and to feel a little bit more clearly.

Q: So that’s the way to start having clear thoughts?

John: Yes.

Q: That’s beautiful, and it also makes me tremble a little.

John: It makes your self vulnerable. You experience the lack in your self and your self is subject to the surrounding situation, so when you simply go to your heart the vulnerability in your self will be even greater because of the situation. 

If you address the situation before you go to your heart, you won’t see clearly. You’ll see in a way that’s polarized. You’ll see through the relationship in your thinking and feeling between positives and negatives. 

Being in your heart alleviates you of that tension. That removes the tension from your thinking and your feeling, and instead of thinking and feeling in a way that’s polarized, you’ll think from within a most delicate, quiet clarity. There’s no story to that, and there’s no spin. 

You’ll come into the freshest space in your mind. You’ll have the clearest thinking that you’re capable of.

Q: I feel that’s opening up now. It’s connected to so much love for everything in the midst of the chaos in the world, so much vulnerable love. That’s probably also what I’ve been trying to grasp from this tense kind of thinking about the world situation. I tried to grasp this love.

Thank you.

Receiving And Living the Gift Of Cancer

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Q: About two years ago I found I had cancer. The first night was so difficult, a shock. Towards the morning I was in an emotional upheaval, and then I touched a very deep space of being. I found peace I had never known before, and knew the way to heal my self. I knew everything was okay. I was quiet, at peace and there was this inner joy.

John: You received the gift.

Q: Yes, this is exactly how I felt: it was a gift, and from the voice I heard inside of my heart I chose to heal my self in a natural way. I went through a deep fear of death and met the same being, the same peace, the same loving presence I cannot describe in words.

John: Living the gift is worth more than living. 

Q: Today I can receive this gift more and more, and that state of being that you talk about exists inside of me most of the time. The shift from the old me to the new is so great. My connection to my being is so deep, yet my physical health has not changed.

John: That’s fine. You have the better part: living the gift. Take care of your body without distraction from living the gift. 

Q: You mean taking care of my body regardless of circumstances, even if I hadn’t received the gift?

John: Receiving the gift awakens you to a different level of your body. Living the gift means that you’re living from within that level of your body. 

Q: What does it mean to live from that other physical level?

John: Instead of receiving the gift and having the gift, you are living being the magicalness of the gift. 

From there, take care of the body that you are used to. The body you’re taking care of isn’t the same as the body you’re coming from. The care makes the difference. Trying to make your body better doesn’t make the difference. 

Your care of your body from within the magicalness of the gift is what you love, and it is what makes the difference. 

You’re going to die sometime. Live the gift until you die. Living the gift is your life until you die.  If you’re not living the gift, you’re filling your life with what is sort-of-dead until you die. 

After you have died, you will understand all of this perfectly. Until then, you know. 

Q: This experience of the being, the love, the great “thank you” in my heart that I feel … and the external reality … if they all bring about the magic in my life, does that mean that I’m living the gift?

John: When the gift in your living means more to you than living, you’re living the gift, and when you die, you will die how you’ve lived. 

It is all good. Believe it. Believe it because you already know.

Healing Inflamed Sensitivity: A Conscious Return To Your Heart

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Q: When I was very young, I got lost on a crowded beach and was separated from my family. I remember feeling very frightened, alone and disconnected from other people. I realize that ever since that time I’ve continued to feel that way: frightened, alone and disconnected. I feel if I could connect with you it would help.

John: You have a delicate makeup, and when you became separated from your parents and you felt lost, you registered that separation through your sensitivity. That took you up further into your self, and it’s your heart that you were separate from. 

That experience created the pathway that as soon as something affects your self, you register it in your sensitivity. You follow the same path that you did the first time. You go up into your self and you separate from your heart.

The next time that this happens with you, realize your well-worn path in your self and, instead of holding to that pattern and that path, consciously be gentled and quieted in your heart, regardless of how you feel in your self.

This isn’t to change your experience. Being gentled and quieted in your heart changes you. There, you, awareness, are relaxed, at home in your heart. All of your sensitivity in your self is still there, but without you aggravating it. It will take some time for that sensitivity to heal. 

You can deal with anything in your self as long as you don’t separate from your heart. When you’re not in your heart, you’ll use your self to magnify your experience. Instead of listening to your sensitivity, love listening to your heart.

You have that sensitivity to read your environment, to attune to your environment, but you’ve been using it to read how you feel in your self. You take all your sensitivity back to your sensitivity. You don’t need your sensitivity for you to be in your heart.

Use your sensitivity in the way that you would use a tool, where it has an understood, practical use. Use it to read and see what’s taking place in your environment. When you make your sensitivity about your self, your sensitivity becomes inflamed. 

When you are in your heart, your sensitivity settles. You need to give it the space to settle. That means that you’re not using it; you’re not using it in your self or on your self.

Concerning your self, instead of using your sensitivity, use your heart in your self.  Apply being in your heart to the self that you’re in instead of applying your sensitivity, and you’ll be fine.

Q: Thank you.

The Magicalness Of What You Really Are

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Q: When I’m open, there’s such a deep longing to fully let go of all of my protective layers and walls but I’m not sure how. When I feel my self letting go it’s as if my world is flipped upside down, and my physical body can’t handle it. I close because I feel so out of control.

John: Your mind and your nervous system are, through their conditioning, made of all of the holding. So even though you love the openness, even just a thought of letting go of everything that is closed alarms your mind and your nervous system. In referencing it, you empower it. Instead, know your deepest, most quiet love and, as openness, move in it. 

There isn’t any letting go. There is just you opening even more.  

The openness is your love. You engage a letting go because of your love, but the letting go isn’t your love. The pure openness is your love. Engage that openness, and everything of a holding pattern in your nervous system, in your mind, in your self, dissolves because it no longer has a power supply. All of your power is going to what you really are. 

Being your love empowers your love. How to be in it is by being the same as it is. From within this openness in you, you are free to love. There isn’t anything for you to let go of. There isn’t anything to take apart or dismantle. There is really only your openness, and that openness moves as love. In that, you are free; in anything else you’re not free. 

Let go of what holds your self together, and that letting go will always still be holding something together. It really helps, but it isn’t completely it. The short cut, the immediate, what has in it no process, is you directly shifting into your real core. 

You being that core is the whole of your life, in the midst of all that you’ve called your life. In this way you are being what you are after you have died, while you live. 

What you are – not who you are, but what you are – is from way, way beyond this planet and you are really here. Who you are is something that you have adopted, but what you are is real. There is value in who you are but that value comes only from what you are. 

In being what you are despite who you are, the magicalness of what you really are infuses all of who you are. Who you are becomes seen form of what you are.

That makes what you are in this world, visible.

The Marriage Of The Drop And the Ocean

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Q: I feel such openness in every cell of my body. Why am I not falling like a drop into the ocean?

John: Because the drop has investments not in the ocean. The drop has things that matter to it that are not in the ocean.

When as the drop you enter the ocean, everything that was yours as the drop will belong to the ocean. When as the drop you go into the ocean, you and all that’s yours is given into the ocean. 

You have personal concerns about things in your life. You have personal concerns about how your self and your life are configured. Those concerns protect you from entering.

Q: Does that depend on my action, or is it something that happens by itself?

John: When you drop into what you know to enter, when you enter the door, you say “yes” to whatever that may possibly mean later to your self and to anything in your life. Whatever it is that you’ll know as you enter the door, you’ll let take full effect in your self and in your life, whatever that may mean. 

It’s like a marriage. Everything that belongs to you, the drop, is freely given into all the ocean, and everything that is in the ocean is freely given into all of you, the drop. So as soon as you have even a little concern, it makes you wonder if you should marry … if you should marry the ocean. 

As the drop you can keep whatever you like, but then you can’t marry the ocean.

Q: Why is it so scary? 

John: It’s only scary for consideration. When you consider your self it’s scary, but when you’re listening to what you know, all there is is love.

When you are in love, it freely takes you. You have no considerations. All you are is in, and yes, your self and your whole life will change. It will all belong to what you’re in. You’ll use all of it for what you’re in. It’s as big a change to your life as death.

Q: I do feel it is like death. It’s been coming for a while and it scares me so much, even though I know that what is scared is my mind.

John: You are scared inside of your investments, but your investments in your self and in your life are not your love. 

Q: Does it help to have physical distance from all the stories? I feel that my investments are around me all the time. 

John: It would help you a little, but without you being just deeply, quietly, clear and given, you’ll re-create the energy of those investments elsewhere.

Q: I can see that. So it’s just going sweetly inwards.

John: Sweetly in.

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